I am finally settled into my new appartment and let me tell you: It was SO much work moving the stuff around. Next time I move I am literally going to throw away all my stuff.

My new appartment is nice and bigger but the toilet is not working correctly and the water keeps running and it makes a very loud noise from time to time and it is driving me NUTS I need to contact the owner again and tell her to get me a new one……….for fucks sake how am I supposed to sleep..?

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No update in days. Well, I have been busy with planning everything involving me moving and also I had to work A LOT these days. As soon as I’m sitting my new appartment I’ll be updating more and also upload some new layouts/themes, since I’ve been preparing some for you!

Also I want to write a review for “Cheese in the Trap” and leave a message for all my affiliates to ask how they are doing. Sigh, I hope those two weeks will be pass quickly.

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I was drinking with my best friend, my boyfriend and some of his friends and then he told me “Do you know that I love you?”. 

Honestly, I would’ve never expected this. I remember at the beginning of our relationship we talked about “love” and I remember telling him that I’d never be able to say those three little words to anyone and he said that you’d have to be in a relationship for years to really speak of love.. So yeah, it means a lot that he said it after only half a year of dating. I said it back of course haha.  God, I’ve said this so many times but I’m so lucky to have him in my life, I still don’t understand what he sees in me. I’m scared that one day he’ll break up with me..

But well, let’s not talk about this.

I just bought something. Something dirty.. I got a vibrator!! I am sooo excited lmao I’ve never used anything like this before so I’m looking forward to when it’ll arrive. 

Also, I finally handed in my last assignment. YAY! That means I can work on this site a little more!! 

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Well, here we go again. My first weight loss related blog post on this tumblr, yay….

So since spring is on its way I realised that it’s time to get my shit together. I lost around 15kg last year but gained back a lot of it after I met my boyfriend in summer so now I’m at it again. I lost the weight by counting calories (aka undereating) and over-exercising, so yes, I didn’t do it the healthy way. This time I’m going to stick to the amount of exercising (6 times a week) but I’m going to eat a little more than I did before. Since I’m vegan now, maybe it’ll be easier to not to consume that many calories a day, though. 

I remember that last year I had a goal because of this shit ass idiot of a boy who broke my heart, I wanted him to regret not choosing me but well, this time I do not have this sort of motivation anymore.. what do I do…? /sigh

I’m not going to lie, I tried getting back in shape at the beginning of this year (like a lot of ppl probably also did) but failed as expected. I feel like the main reason for this is that I told too many people. Idk why, but I find myself thinking that I’ll stick to my workout routine if I keep quiet about it and just do it (haha)? Does that make sense?

Hopefully I won’t quit. 

I’m starting tomorrow, 25th of February 2016 and I already ate my last package of oreos lmao </3. The first month I’ll try not to eat any sweets and then after that, I have one binge day every week. Once I reached my goal weight, I’ll allow myself to have one sweet unhealthy treat a day. So yeah, that’s the plan. 

I’ll keep you updated. Wish me luck!!

I’m kind of scared to step on the scale tomorrow argh I hate everything

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A lot happened in the past few days. First, I got a notice saying that I have to move out of my appartment soon because they want to re-new everything and sell the appartments in my floor and the floor above for more money. Turns out I can move from the 8th floor to the 3rd, which is actually kind of cool, though, because it literally felt like hell in summer.. but I’m going to miss the view…

There is that.

Next thing that happened was that my high speed internet at home (we only get 30gb a month) is all used up which is why I can’t really access the www that frequently rn ( >> this is why I’m so slow with replying.. ;__;).

This leads me to the next amazing outcome of my life! So basically because of this low amount of internet I have at home I decided to finally, after a year of suffering, invest in real unlimited internet. Haha. Of course, that was before I knew that I had to move so I went to this homepage and ordered a package for my current appartment. Because I wanted things to be done as fast as possible, I decided to renounce my right of withdrawal.. When I found out about me having to move out I emailed the company and they told me that I have to pay 40€ because of my stupidity…………..Great huh?

I’m not done yet, though. I have one more #badluck2k16 story to tell you about. I bought this Liebeskind watch on a german platform which is like ebay but for clothing only. After a week of waiting nothing arrived and I contacted the seller. She told me to wait a little more and blablalba to keep this story brief; she lied to me and did not pay for secured shipping like promised, the package got lost (if she even sent it at all…) and now, after 3 or 4 weeks I demanded a refund and she has the audacity to only fucking offer me 70€ of 150€?! I even threatened to go to a lawyer and she still doesn’t want to give me back my money!! Even though I am in the right! So yeah there is that. I have to call my insurance and ask them if they would cover the legal expenses because I want my goddamn money back.. 

I hate calling people. 

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Because we really wanted to see Deadpool on Valentine’s Day we decided to buy the tickets beforehand. Yesterday when we wanted to print them on the cinema machine thing, for some reason it didn’t work. 

Well, turns out we bought tickets for the day before yesterday, the 13th of February. Haha. #badluck2k16 strikes again! We still decided to buy new ones and sat in the 2nd row, my neck hurt so much and I got a headache but it was soooo worth it! Deadpool was just super funny, we laughed a lot. 10/10 

Before that we went to a restaurant, like I mentioned. I ordered a Pizza Rucola without the cheese and mozarella and you should’ve seen the look on the worker’s face. I explained that I’m vegan but I’m pretty sure he didn’t know what I meant by that. Well, the pizza was very good though! 

Other than that, I realised once again just how lucky I am to have someone like J in my life. He’s not perfect, he has his flaws, but then again; who doesnt? And his good qualities outweight the bad ones by far. He is always so sweet and caring and funny and and and… I still don’t really understand what he sees in me.. I know I’m pretty and sometimes I say something funny but that’s about it. And he is so so smart! Me on the other hand, I literally count myself among the laziest people ever; I hardly study for my exams and procrastinate ALL.THE.TIME. I just can’t stop and i wooont stooop cant u see its me who..
I just want to be around him all the time, I hate that we don’t see each other that often because of those stupid exams..

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Today my boyfriend J and I will be going out for dinner and afterwards we are going to see Deadpool. I am soooo excited to see this movie, I bet it’s hilarious!! 

Sadly, I’m supposed to get my period either today or tomorrow so probably there won’t be any sexy time on this romantic day. Great. #badluck2k16 

I even took those Cranberry pills bc according to multiple internet sites it benefits your down-there in so many ways…….. Somehow I feel like I’m going to regret sharing this information

Lately I’ve been getting into a lot of girlgroups actually. I remember when I used to stan EXO and GOT7 like crazy and now I couldn’t care less about their activities (well except for Jackson, I’m still a fan of him). 

Recently I stumbled upon GFriend and I absolutely adore those girls. I haven’t seen all their videos yet because of internet connection problems but I’m definitely going to look more into them as soon as everything’s okay again. 
You need to watch this video, it actually made me curious about them!

That being said, I hope you all have a nice Valentine’s Day!

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I am kind of pissed. Yesterday I went on Snapchat and looked at my ex crush’s story and it was a picture of him (B.) and his girlfriend. Apparently yesterday marks the day they’ve been together for a year. Great, like I don’t give a shit BUT it kind of does bother me that I WAS RIGHT WITH MY SPECULATIONS!!

He was doing stuff with me while being friendzoned by his female best friend and then they eventually did get together and that’s why he abruptly stopped talking to me. He literally only hung out with me because she didn’t let him get some. I re-read my old blog posts to confirm it and I just feel so pathetic for having wasted so many goddamn thoughts on this piece of shit. Wow. 

I’m very happy with my boyfriend J, I love him, but the incident with B still made me bitter. So let me tell you, if a guy doesn’t give you 100% from the beginning don’t wait around and wonder why and what you did wrong. Just move on instead. 

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So I am extremely busy lately with my exams but of course, the procrastinator that I am, I managed to code a complete new layout for tumblr. It features aPink and I actually like it a lot haha

Since I moved from blogspot (i084.blogspot.com) back to Tumblr, I decided changed my url to tofu.3bears.co.kr.. Thanks Youtube for suggesting some korean cooking videos

I am still working on this site, though, there is a lot more to come so stay tuned!!

Honestly, I missed blogging aka documenting my every thought. I can’t wait to post more again it’s not like anyone cares but whatever!!

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I GOT ACCEPTED TO UNIVERSITY!!! AND NOT JUST ANY UNIVERSITY BUT MY NR 1 CHOICE!!! I’m so happy seriously, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

Now I can lean back and enjoy life at its fullest. HAHA NOT REALLY

I need to find a job to pay for the university and I also need to get my driver’s license since I am almost 19 and I feel like it’s time to get my shit together. Unfortunately I wasn’t blessed with a mother that thinks her child should rest and not work until it’s done with studying, so I have to go and and get a job.
Sigh, life would be much easier if I wasn’t incredibly lazy and socially awkward….. 

This is me 24/7 rn tbh. 
I also got into got7 lately and I have to say I am so in love with Jackson he is hilarious!! Other than that I am still missing Kris (HIS NEW SONG IS AMAZING THE FIRST 14 TIMES I LISTENED TO IT I CRIED BLOOD) and I also listen a lot to f(x)’s new album and 2ne1 lately.

Also, I am concidering moving to blogspot (pls dont kill me but I feel like the writing system is better bc for example you can post gifs next to each other and you can’t do that on tumblr)

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I AM STILL ALIVE!!!!! I haven’t been updating lately, I’m sorry T___T I could easily lie and tell you that I’ve been extremely busy with real life stuff but honestly, I spent most of my time in bed watching EXO videos.

So besides that, what happened in the past few weeks (?) ?

> Graduation Event
I got my report card. YAY!!

> Prom
Yeah wooohooo prom. My dress was a little too big after all and I feel like it made me look fat but well, it was alright and fitted the dress-code. Prom itself was nice, after my parents left and the coctail bar opened… other than that it was pretty boring but still ended way too early. I have to admit I got pretty emotional but that was probably just because of the alcohol since I really don’t miss those people at all.

> Uni Applications
I want to stay in my current city because of financial reasons and I hope from the bottom of my hear that the university near my appartement accepts me. Otherwise I would have to use the train everyday ;A;

> Driver’s License 
I haven’t applied yet but I want to start learning how to drive in August. I have to admit, I’m really scared x__x

> Getting a job
Honestly, I don’t want to work. I could spend the rest of my life like I’ve spent it the past weeks but my mum is pressuring me so I should get my ass up apply for some jobs.

> My “Ex” Crush
…is driving me nuts. I don’t know why he STILL keeps messaging me (although I shouldn’t be complaining since he is one of the only social contacts I have rn since I’m trying to be distant to my old “school friends”). After all we won’t see each other again (if we dont end up going to the same uni) ….

> K-Pop
So I am wayyyyyyy into deep with EXO already. Especially Kris (who as you guys know left the group) //sigh// he is an angel. My thirst for him is so strong you dont understand…………….
I can’t really decide who my “new” bias in EXO is though. I thought it would be Chanyeol for sure but Sehun…………………

I also listened a lot to Tablo lately, seriously, this guy is great! 
Btw: I even bought a domain wuyifan.org for my main tumblr WHAT HAVE I BECOME??? (((i regret nothing!!!)))

> Virus
My laptop had some spyware/virus on it and I had to reset everything. Of course I lost all my stuff (I DID USE AN EXTERNAL MEMORY THINGY BUT I MESSED UP AND STILL DELETED EVERYTHING OKAY I AM DUMB) so I am still kind of sad & I’ve been listening to the same 3 songs for the past 5 hours because I dont want to re-download everything and I am way too lazy to transfer the songs I have on my phone to my laptop.

> K-Dramas
I am still watching Doctor Stranger and Roommate. I also started to watch Eunji’s new drama though and I love her so much even though the plot is really far fetched and most of the characters are annoying but WHATEVER EUNJI YOU GO GIRL!!!

And that’s it for now. I’ll reply to my e-mails and guestbook/shoutbox entries tomorrow since I haven’t slept AT ALL (don’t ask why) and I want to take a nap now. ~~

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On the 14th of June I lost my kissing-virginity. And before you ask; yes I am 18 years old and have never kissed anyone before that day.

I always wanted my first kiss to be something special. I imagined it to be super romantic with someone I’m deeply in love with (I’ve only really liked someone once so..) and expected to see unicorns or fireworks and shit.. I dont even know why I thought kissing would be that ‘magical’ because in the end, it was nothing like that.

My best friend and I were at this party we weren’t even invited to.. my friend’s friend basically begged us to go and that was actually the only reason we were there. The party was one of the lamest parties I’ve ever been to, so to have at least a little bit of fun we decided to drink more alcohol than we planned and I ended up talking to this guy who told me about his tragic past and how his father died because of drugs. I think we talked for about 3 hours and I thought that he seemed like a really nice and decent person since he also liked Naruto and told me that he was studying japanese, which I found fascinating!
Yeah, stupid to assume a person’s character based on whether they like an anime or not but well, like I said, I was drunk.
(And let’s be honest; Naruto isn’t just any anime! So my judgment was actually kind of justified okay!?)

After a while I somehow started to think; Should I just kiss him? I mean it’s now or never and it’s not like I’m interested in seeing him again so it wouldn’t be embarrassing if I messed up…
When he went to the toilet my best friend came up to me and I told her about my “inner conflict”. She then said I should just try it if I wanted to, so when he came back and she left, I decided that I would just get it over with. How romantic, right? Ha, I know, I know, you shouldn’t ‘waste’ your first kiss like that but you can’t always get what you want, right?

We continued to talk a lot, well… he talked. I, for the most part, just listened and tried to think of a way to start making out with him. Should I just interrupt him and kiss him or wait untill he’s done with talking? I kind of chickened out, though, and got angry at myself, but when my friend told me that we had to leave, I was like okay whatever fuck it! I hugged him goodbye, kissed him on the cheek first and then really kissed him and left.

No fireworks, no unicorns, no romantic feelings. And we didn’t make out for real but well, I we did kiss so that counts. And even though it was nothing like I imagined, I’m still glad I did it because I realized how unnecessary my worries and how incredibly unrealistic my expectations were. A kiss isn’t something special.

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I’m so so sorry for not being active but I had my last final exam and now I’m done with school!!! I am so happy all the stress is gone now and I have time to enjoy myself (and with “enjoying myself” I mean staying up untill 4am bc of tumblr)!

While I was studying I started to watch the EXO-Showtime videos. Now, I have never really been into k-pop idols (I mean yes i listen to some groups and find some of the men really attractive but I’ve never been a hardcore fan of a group or sth) but they started to grow on me. And then I read the news that EXO-M’s Kris is leaving the group. Of course, hE HE HAD TO BE THE ONE I STARTED TO LIKE THE MOST (and Chanyeol)….. Seriously, this is so messed up; I don’t want to go into detail about the whole SM-issue now because I need to write my uni applications but let me tell you, I am not happy. At all.

I am also going to work on a new layout, I think. It’s time for a change heheh <3 (but I have to admit, I really love this current layout idk if I will be able to code something I like more..).

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Only one final exam is left!! I am so glad and theorethically I already passed my Abitur/A Levels *yay*

Anyways, let’s get down to business! I was tagged by the lovely Yukina :D

The rules are
♥ Link the person who nominated you in your post | Verlinke die Person, die dich Nominiert hat im Beitrag.
♥ Answer the 11 questions your tagger formulated | Beantworte die 11 Fragen, die bei dem Vorbeitrag dein/er ‘Tagger/in’ gestellt hat.
♥ Think of 11 new questions for the people you are going to tag | Denke dir 11 neue Fragen aus, für die Personen die du Taggst.
♥ Choose one or more blogs which have less than 200 followers and tell them you nominated them. | Wähle einen oder mehr andere Blogs, die unter 200 Follower haben, und teile denen deine Nominierung mit ^.~

1. What does your perfect breakfast look like?
Scrambled eggs, bread and tea

2. Have ever been a (secret) fan of a song, singer, celebrity or a band which you feel embarrassed about today?
Avril Lavigne… her new music video hello kitty makes me question my faith in humanity

3. What’s the last tv show you watched and who is your favourite character?
The last tv show I watched was a k-drama “Doctor Stranger” and my favourite is obviously Lee Jong-Suk’s character heheh

4. What’s on the last picture you took?
A teddy bear I made for my step dad’s birthday today!

5. Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter?
HARRY POTTER OF COURSE IS THAT EVEN A REAL QUESTION

6. What do you think of having to wear school uniforms (looking like those from Japan)?
A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!

7. What tea flavour can you recommend your readers?
Good old green tea… I don’t really drink any other teas

8. How long did it take you to finish the last book you read?
1 day

9. Which Websites do you visit on a daily basis/everytime you turn on your laptop?
Tumblr.com, amazon.de, 8tracks.com, youtube.com

10. Imagine going to the supermarket and you meet your 3 favourite celebrities (animated characters included) - what would you do?
I would walk up to them and ask them for a picture and I would tell them how much I love and appreciate their work.

11. What’s the most beautiful and the weirdest present you ever recieved?
Most beautiful: my best friend made a collage of pictures of me and her and I love it so much
Weirdest: bottles filled with alcohol which were shaped like a sperm (MY AUNT SEND ME THOSE FOR MY 18th BIRTHDAY????)

My questions:
1. Your favourite Youtuber? | Dein Lieblingsyoutuber?
2. Name your 3 favourite books! | Nenne deine 3 Lieblingsbücher!
3. If you had the chance to live somewhere else, where would it be? | Wenn du die Möglichkeit hättest irgendwo anders zu leben, wo wäre das?
4. One embarrassing memory? | Eine peinliche Erinnerung?
5. Android phone or iPhone? | Android Handy oder iPhone?
6. Why did you decide to start a blog? | Wieso hast du dich dazu entschieden einen blog zu führen?
7. Think of your 3 favourite celebrities. Who would you kiss, who would you marry and who would you kill? | Denk dir deine 3 Lieblings-Stars. Wen würdest du: küssen, wen würdest du heiraten und wen töten?
8. Tell me a weird fact about you! | Erzähl mir einen seltsamen Fakt über dich!’
9. Cats or dogs? | Katzen oder Hunde?
10. Do you still play The Sims (1, 2 or 3)? | Spielst du immer noch Die Sims (1, 2 oder 3)?
11. What does your ideal future look like? | Wie sieht deine ideale Zukunft aus?

I tag Samatha, Anzu, Yasemin

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Day 16.
I lost 5.5kg/~12pounds so far.

Not eating and just drinking Almased is getting easier. Right now all my cravings have died off although smelling food is still really hard. I do enjoy looking at food, though. I downloaded a food recipes app where I created a list of healthy food I want to make as soon as I’m done with my diet.

Also last week I kind of had “a day off" where I drank lots of alcohol since there was this huge party in my city. I just added another day of 3x Almased to make up for it, meaning there are only 6 days left until I can eat one meal a day.

My workouts are going pretty good too but I have to admit that I am doing less Blogilates and more cardio now. I used to do 40-60min pilates 6 times a week and 30-40min cardio every second day. Now I am at 20-30min pilates and 40min cardio every day 6 times a week. 

My last to final exams are just around the corner and I am super busy so please excuse my late replies and inactive blogging T___T And wish me luck, guys!

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Day 7.
I’ve lost 3kg/~7pounds so far.

My diet is going well so far, well, except for the fact that I am really fucking hungry.

I haven’t eaten anything for the past 7 days and just drank Almased and 3l water everyday. Like I mentioned before; I also go to the gym every second day and do Blogilates 6 days a week. Thank god, it’s “only” two more weeks untill I can finally eat something healthy!!

And yes, I KNOW IT’S NOT HEALTHY but I don’t care. I tried the healthy way but it just doesn’t work for me. In my case, it’s either go big or go home.

In 14 days I will only replace 2 meals instead of 3 with Almased and after another 3 weeks I’ll replace only 1 meal and then we’ll see if I am happy with the way I look or want to start over again.

My first meal will be a salat with tomatos, cucumbers, a little bit of onions and some low fat meat which I am going to add the the salad. Ugh you can’t even imagine how much I am looking forward to this….. For my second meal the next day, I will try to make some kimchi. I’m kind of excited for this one!!

Yesterday was tough. My friend ate a huge piece of cake RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME while I was just chewing my gum sigh…. And next to me there was a guy eating a whole pizza and there was just food everywhere!! It smelled so good………. Well, I have to admit, I am really proud since I was able to control myself and not buy anything, not like I used to. 

Also I spent about 5hours at the library that day (AGAIN) because of my finals. I hate school. T____T 

I’ll keep you updated. The reviews will follow as soon as I am done with my finals.

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I really wanted to post more frequently. Ha! Obviously I didn’t manage to do so… 

Besides finishing Dream High and Cunning Single Lady (I’ll do a review soon! I know, I always say that and then it takes me weeks to actually write one but I am super busy bc my final oral exams are just around the corner), I’ve been focusing on losing weight. 

Last year I started to exercise but didn’t really lose much because I was not able to change my diet. I just couldn’t bring myself to do it… plus, I always assumed that I would still lose weight if I’d just continue to work out every second day. Obviously that didn’t work.

Now, last month, I started to change my eating habits and cut out all the junk food and sweets. I also replaced my usual gym workout (30min of cardio aka 500kcal) with BLOGILATES (I love love love Cassey!!!) and I just completed the Beginner’s Calendar which I’m very proud of. Of course since it’s only been 1 month it’s not like I’ve lost extremely much but I already feel that my muscles are stronger than before. I am really looking forward to do next month’s calendar (Cassey’s workout calendars basically tell you which videos to do every day in order to achieve the best results).

Another thing I did was ordering Almased which is some sort of dietary supplement, since a lot of people (my best friend included) say it really works. I don’t know about that but I’ll definitely give it a try and keep you updated!

School’s tomorrow. Ugh. I need to take a shower. x__x

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