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written on Friday, 30 October 2015 @ 12:26 ♡
I've always been self-concious about the way my body looks. I remember ever since I was 14 I was worrying 24/7 about whether I look fat or not. I felt horrible and even cried myself to sleep at times. I literally tried everything to lose weight, I did all those crazy diets and even went 2 weeks without eating any food just drinking this really fucking bad tasting supplement shake. Nothing worked. Earlier this year I lost around 15kg (my highest weight was 85kg) by over-exercising and undereating and that is literallythe only way for me to be happy. I can't just work out 3 times a week and eat a healthy 2000kcal because that'll make me feel bad and if I don't go to the gym almost every day, I lose motivationm which is basically what happened once I started dating my boyfriend. I wanted to spend time with him so I didn't go to the gym as often as I used to and then I got sick and couldn't go for around 2 weeks. This lead to me not going at all for two months which made me gain back a lot since I started to overeat on super unhealthy stuff again.
Yesterday I decided that I'm back on track. I remebered how confident and pretty I felt when I was working out and watched what I ate and I just want to feel like that again.
So now I'm working out 6x/a week and eating around 1.000kcal a day. Once I lost all the fat and hit my goal weight I'll increase my daily calorie intake to around 1.300kcal and then to 1.500kcal. There's still a long way to go.
Labels: life, regular, weight loss journey