Civil War

written on Monday, 2 May 2016 @ 07:03 ♡

People at work really hate dislike my boyfriend J. I mean, I kind of get why.. somehow... since I didn't like him before I got to know him, either (even though that kind of striked my interest in him haha). I guess I have a thing for guys who seem cold lmao. I remember last year when I first introduced myself, I thought 'Wow, I hate this guy. I don't want to work with him anymore'. I tried my best to make a good impression on everyone because I was eager to find new friends and apparently he just didn't give a shit about who I was. J was literally the only guy who didn't talk to me during our shift and he used to be so intimidating. Once I got so bored I made another effort to start a conversation and he actually started to fucking talk. A lot.  I couldn't believe it. And when we went out the first time I remember thinking 'Is this the same person?!'. He was so kind and funny. So yeah, I guess just feel sorry for those people at work who will never get to know what an amazing person he is.

Yesterday he and I went to see Captain America: Civil War and it. was. amazing!! It's an absolute must-see for any Marvel fan, I s2g!!

As you may or not may know I am currently trying out the McDougall Diet for Maximum Weight Loss but I decided to cheat that day because we were both getting really hungry and felt like eathing some snacks during the movie. Well, I guess you could say as soon as I was on my way home, my digestion declared civil war. I sat on the toilet for a long-ass time and I felt so sick the whole evening. After two or more hours of not being able to sleep I ended up waking up at 5.30am.

I read something in the book and also in some of the Amazon reviews that apparently people who decided to eat like they used to before going on this "diet" experieced something like that but I didn't think that I would, too! Man, let me tell you; I am not doing that again! It is not worth it. Apparently my body reacted that way because it was already getting used to eating so clean that eating the unhealthy processed stuff was too irritating. And I only ate some pretzel sticks, vegan dark chocolate (80%) and drank 1L of Coca Cola Zero.

Damn.

Edit: I'll be changing the layout to something way more simple with a bigger font size soon. I love the current Apink one, I really do, but it is not very pleasant to the eyes..

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McDougall Program for Maximum Weight Loss, Summary

written on Monday, 25 April 2016 @ 12:26 ♡


Like I mentioned in my last post, I bought John A. McDougall's book 'The McDougall Program for Maximum Weight Loss' because I am just so tired of calorie restricting (800-1000kcal per day) and over exercising (cardio 45min. 6 times a week). After reading and watching all those positive reviews on this book, I decided to give it a try since I know that my former way of losing weight is neither healthy, nor sustainable since I already gained back half of the ~15kg/30lbs I lost last year.
So the next few months I will be documenting my weight loss and experiences with this diet (or should I say life style?) and hopefully I'll get some nice results.

My starting weight is 74.3kg/163,8lbs and I'm 168cm/5'6 tall.
"Initially, you are inspired and hopeful about a new diet; you fast, suffer hunger, and count calories; you enjoy short-term weight loss; the hunger takes its troll and you break your fast and eat (...) you go back to your old way of eating" (p.39)
Let's talk about the program.

McDougall starts by making one understand that hunger is not a bad, but a good thing. The body is telling us that it needs certain nutrients and that we won't be satsified before getting those. The most important thing the body needs are contrary to popular belief: carbohydrates.
You hardly get those from animal products (dairy and meat) or oils and should much rather focus on eating plant based, such as potatoes, rice and vegetables (read: The China Study).

I know that when I first decided to change my life and go vegan I thought "What the hell am I going to eat now?!". I didn't like cooking, I didn't like potatos and I absolutely loved meat. I literally ate chicken every. single. day. and couldn't understand and imagine how someone would actually choose to go vegetarian or even worse; vegan. One day I ended up watching kalelkitten's video out of curiosity and because I wasn't able to fall asleep and after overcomming my ignorance and finally stopping to roll my eyes everytime she said "vegan", I realised that what she talks about actually made sense.
The day after watching her and many other educational videos on the meat and dairy industry, I started to cook more and cut out all animal products (which was easier than I thought) and now I find myself loving potatos and veggies which I didn't like before. "Food preferences are learned and unlearned" says McDougall (p.35).
"The fat you eat is the fat you wear" (p.48)
According to the book, less than 4% fat of one's daily calorie intake is used for synthesis of new cells, hormones, and other body parts and another 3% of kcal is buned in the transfer of fat from the dinner plate to the adipose tissue which leaves 93% of the fat consumed (p.42)!!
Carbohydrates are not stored as fat and they don't make you gain weight. They get processed and if you comsume 'too much' of it the body ends up burning and releasing them as heat through the skin and lungs. The fat you wear gets burned quickly, though, if you stop eating fat.

So what does the McDougal diet consist of?
The McDougall diet consist mostly of starches (p.60ff), which are ideal for the human body:

  • Whole grains (brown rice, barley, oatmeal, wheat, millet)
  • Potatoes (sweet potatoes, yams)
  • Squashes (acorn, butternut, buttercup, summer squash, pumpkin)
  • Legumes (beans, peas, lentils)
  • Yellow and green vegetables (carrots, collard greens), should be 1/3 to 1/2 of your meal!
  • Fruit (2 servings a day), avoid dried fruit, fruit puree and fruit juice
  • No animal products (diary, meat, eggs)
  • No oils (eliminate ALL oils! Yes, that includes avocados, nuts, soy products like tofu, etc.)
  • No flour products (bread, bagels, pastas, pretzels, crackers, corn, wheat tortillas) 
  • Try to stay away from processed food
  • Eat small amouts of sugar (on your oatmeal for example)

Rules
  • Eat until you're satsfied (like mentioned before: chew slowly)
  • 6 or more small meals a day, snack frequently
  • Chew slowly
  • Allow time for digestion (20min, if still hungry → eat more)
  • Restrict variety (for example have rice with vegetables and tomato sauce, not a plate full of various little smaller meals like salsa, rice, noodles, vegetables, fruit all at the same time)
  • Take vitamin B12 (more info)
  • Do some exercise to fasten the weight loss (walking 1h 3 times a week, for example, it controls appetite)


Balancing your meal for weight loss (p.73)
  • Moderate → 2/3 starch, 1/3 very low calorie salads
  • Rapid → 1/2 starch, 1/2 very low calorie salads
  • Hasty → 1/3 starch, 2/3 very low calorie salads

Some more tips
  • Consider using guar gum, oat bran, rice bran etc.
  • Cut down salt
  • Hot red pepper may increase metabolic rate and burn more calories (p.72)
  • Artifical sweeteners may increase hunger, also litte sugar is allowed so there is no need for Stevia etc.
  • Only drink water when you're thirsty, don't drink at meals (can make you feel full but also hungry)
  • Be faithful to yourself, really follow the rules! 
  • Eat low calorie greens and vegetables before the starchy portion
  • To maintain weight loss, continue following the program
  • Give yourself time to adjust to the new foods
  • Make your exercise fun, don't over-do it (you should be able to carry a conversation while exercising, if not - slow down!), do them before meals
  • Try to stay away from alcohol and coffee
  • Shop for food when you are full, make a shopping list
"Health feels better than sickness" (p.138)
Where do I start? (p.127ff)
  1. Be goal-oriented → I want to lose 20kg/44lbs
  2. Acknowledge your willingness to pay the price → Eating at home, no oils
  3. Educate yourself → Skinny Bitch, China Study, YouTube
  4. Visualize yourself as healthy → Imagine everyone asking "how did you do it?"
  5. Make a commitment → *Shia Labeaouf voice* JUST DO IT! (c) Nike
  6. Ensure that your environment supports your goals → Following your diet should be as easy as possible 
  7. Alter Your Copin Mechanisms → Instead of stuffing your face with unhealthy food, go for a walk
  8. Join a Support Group
  9. Reward yourself → Celebrate small victories
  10. Keep it simple → Frozen food FTW!!
So there you go. The book also contains some more informations about nutrition as well as tips for eating out, recipes and much more. I'd recommend you check out McDougall's homepage as well, since he also provides a lot of recommendations and suggestions etc. on there. I hope this is helpful to some of you. Good luck on your journey!

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Weight Weight Weight

written on Friday, 30 October 2015 @ 12:26 ♡

I've always been self-concious about the way my body looks. I remember ever since I was 14 I was worrying 24/7 about whether I look fat or not. I felt horrible and even cried myself to sleep at times. I literally tried everything to lose weight, I did all those crazy diets and even went 2 weeks without eating any food just drinking this really fucking bad tasting supplement shake. Nothing worked. Earlier this year I lost around 15kg (my highest weight was 85kg) by over-exercising and undereating and that is literallythe only way for me to be happy. I can't just work out 3 times a week and eat a healthy 2000kcal because that'll make me feel bad and if I don't go to the gym almost every day, I lose motivationm which is basically what happened once I started dating my boyfriend. I wanted to spend time with him so I didn't go to the gym as often as I used to and then I got sick and couldn't go for around 2 weeks. This lead to me not going at all for two months which made me gain back a lot since I started to overeat on super unhealthy stuff again.

Yesterday I decided that I'm back on track. I remebered how confident and pretty I felt when I was working out and watched what I ate and I just want to feel like that again. 
So now I'm working out 6x/a week and eating around 1.000kcal a day. Once I lost all the fat and hit my goal weight I'll increase my daily calorie intake to around 1.300kcal and then to 1.500kcal. There's still a long way to go.

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+ I lost 4kg, - I hate everyone pt 2

written on Wednesday, 6 May 2015 @ 17:23 ♡

So first of all the good news; I lost 4kg!! It took me 4 weeks which is actually a long time concidering the fact that I once lost 7kg in 3 weeks but then again this time I'm doing it the healthy way and I'm not doing any work-outs at all. I simply try to eat less than 1200kcal per day and walk or ride my bike everywhere.

Now let's talk about the not so pretty things.
To be honest, I always expected to find friends I'm going to have for the rest of my life in university but right now it doesn't seem like it. Everyone I hang out with is super friendly and nice but I just can't seem to really connect w anyone which I didn't mind at first, but now it turnes out that my best friend M is going to leave to study in a different city in September, meaning I'll be all by myself..



Also there is this guy. He's taken but I'm kind of getting interested. I don't know if I'm getting interested in a romantic way or just a friend kinda way but I just find myself wanting to talk to him a lot all the time and it's really fucking frustrating.
And then there's this other guy from my class who I kind of want to hook up with but then again he seems to be VERY experienced to say the least, and I don't know if I could handle the pressure since I'm over here like

what is a boy....?

Right..
So there is that..

Another thing bothering me is the fact that (I just spilled coke all over my table I think that's a sign from god that he isn't very pleased with me using that picture of Holy Maria to describe my sex life) the guy who broke my heart is happy. I just saw him and his girlfriend going to Zara and god, just looking at them made me want to throw up. 

I got back my SHERLOCK DVDs and everything after messaging him frist (!!) and when we met up, he fucking showed up 17 minutes too late. 17 fucking minutes. 
I texted him "where r u" and he was all "ohh u r already here?? haha ok im on my way" WHAT THE FUCK I CLEARLY FUCKING SAID LET'S MEET AT 6PM WHAT MADE U THINK THAT BY 6PM I MEAN 6:17???????????? Goddamnit.
And then he forgot to bring my bag.
You know, I originally planned to just get my stuff and leave quietly without starting to talk about my life and everything but when he fucked up again so I decided to fucking gloat about everything that happened lately. Fuck you. I told him about my appartement, my hamster, uni, the party I was visiting after etc etc. and then I was like "ok I g2g I'm meeting someone bye" and left.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that he didn't apologise for being late :)

Just writing about this makes me so angry and mad god I want to rip his head off!!! I don't understand what I liked about him. Why did I think this boy was so special?? I don't understand. What the fuck??

So yeah, I've been busy.

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I'm moving out!!!

written on Saturday, 21 March 2015 @ 13:01 ♡

Originally my mum planed to move out of our current flat and she wanted me to start a living community with my best friend but that didn't work out as planned so she asked me if I'd like to move out instead. Of course I'd love to move out aND GET MY OWN FLAT!!! So I went online and looked for some flats and I found the most amazing one ever. It's the 7th floor of an appartment building and when you look out of the window you have a view over the whole city, it's amazing. The appartment building also has its own gym and café at the top of it and apparently it's full of university students and foreigners. Ahhhh I'm so excited!! I got really lucky finding this flat.

The whole moving out procedure is going to take place next week on the 27th. I have to admit, I'm not really looking forward to moving all my stuff around but then again once this is over I'm going to be so glad. The only thing that is kind of bothering me is the fact that I have to work so much since I'm paying for the flat myself.

Right now I'm working two jobs so that I earn 400€ a month (I'd work more but if I do, I wont get the financial aid I'm already getting form the state). The flat is 430€ + 20€ for internet and with the money I'm getting from the state I'd have to pay 150€ which leaves me with 250€ for other things since my mum will still be providing me with food. I don't know if I'll be able to study and work this much at the same time but I'll definitely try and see how it works out.
I'm also planning on buying myself a hamster (yay!!) so look forward to some pictures hehe

I'm going to start my weight loss program again on monday next week. I'll write more about this another time though since I have to go to work now. Laterzz

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Resolutions

written on Thursday, 11 September 2014 @ 00:15 ♡

Now that I'm officially done with men I decided to focus more on myself.
By "men" I am only referring to real life men, of course. I won't ever stop swooning over celebrities to be honest. Actually, I feel like having an imaginary relationship with a famous singer or actor is way more satisfying than having a real life crush anyways. I mean there is no fear of rejection ever, he won't disappoint you and you don't have to worry about whether he's going to text you back or not... I mean, I guess sometimes you want to actually connect with someone forreal but common, that's just one negative aspect!!

 
If you're determined like me, and you try hard enough, you can actually replace the dog with yourself in your mind and feel those kisses....................... I live such a sad life...

But jokes aside, I really want to think more about myself and concentrate on fulfilling my dreams that don't involve finding The One. Starting tomorrow I am going to do this crazy unhealthy diet I once did for instance, since my eating habits are getting worse and worse and I'm gaining weight. I am doing this for me and I want to be comfortable in my own skin..

I am also going to focus more on my korean studies. Yes, I've said that I will do that so many times but this time, I am really going to get my shit together and learn the language. And besides, I need something to keep me occupied so that I don't think about how hungry I am while being on this diet anyway, so who knows, I might be fluent in korean in a few months??? lmao

It feels good to actually write down those resolutions and to have a plan, to have something to focus on. I hope I'll stay as motivated as I am right now.

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Weight Loss Journey #3

written on Wednesday, 14 May 2014 @ 09:59 ♡

Day 16.
I lost 5.5kg/~12pounds so far.


Not eating and just drinking Almased is getting easier. Right now all my cravings have died off although smelling food is still really hard. I do enjoy looking at food, though. I downloaded a food recipes app where I created a list of healthy food I want to make as soon as I’m done with my diet.


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Also last week I kind of had “a day off" where I drank lots of alcohol since there was this huge party in my city. I just added another day of 3x Almased to make up for it, meaning there are only 6 days left until I can eat one meal a day.


My workouts are going pretty good too but I have to admit that I am doing less Blogilates and more cardio now. I used to do 40-60min pilates 6 times a week and 30-40min cardio every second day. Now I am at 20-30min pilates and 40min cardio every day 6 times a week. 


My last to final exams are just around the corner and I am super busy so please excuse my late replies and inactive blogging T___T And wish me luck, guys!

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Weight Loss Journey #2

written on Monday, 5 May 2014 @ 16:11 ♡

Day 7.
I’ve lost 3kg/~7pounds so far.


My diet is going well so far, well, except for the fact that I am really fucking hungry.


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I haven’t eaten anything for the past 7 days and just drank Almased and 3l water everyday. Like I mentioned before; I also go to the gym every second day and do Blogilates 6 days a week. Thank god, it’s “only” two more weeks untill I can finally eat something healthy!!


And yes, I KNOW IT’S NOT HEALTHY but I don’t care. I tried the healthy way but it just doesn’t work for me. In my case, it’s either go big or go home.


In 14 days I will only replace 2 meals instead of 3 with Almased and after another 3 weeks I’ll replace only 1 meal and then we’ll see if I am happy with the way I look or want to start over again.


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My first meal will be a salat with tomatos, cucumbers, a little bit of onions and some low fat meat which I am going to add the the salad. Ugh you can’t even imagine how much I am looking forward to this….. For my second meal the next day, I will try to make some kimchi. I’m kind of excited for this one!!


Yesterday was tough. My friend ate a huge piece of cake RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME while I was just chewing my gum sigh…. And next to me there was a guy eating a whole pizza and there was just food everywhere!! It smelled so good………. Well, I have to admit, I am really proud since I was able to control myself and not buy anything, not like I used to. 


Also I spent about 5hours at the library that day (AGAIN) because of my finals. I hate school. T____T 


I’ll keep you updated. The reviews will follow as soon as I am done with my finals.

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Weight Loss Journey #1

written on Sunday, 27 April 2014 @ 17:14 ♡

I really wanted to post more frequently. Ha! Obviously I didn’t manage to do so… 




Besides finishing Dream High and Cunning Single Lady (I’ll do a review soon! I know, I always say that and then it takes me weeks to actually write one but I am super busy bc my final oral exams are just around the corner), I’ve been focusing on losing weight. 


Last year I started to exercise but didn’t really lose much because I was not able to change my diet. I just couldn’t bring myself to do it… plus, I always assumed that I would still lose weight if I’d just continue to work out every second day. Obviously that didn’t work.


Now, last month, I started to change my eating habits and cut out all the junk food and sweets. I also replaced my usual gym workout (30min of cardio aka 500kcal) with BLOGILATES (I love love love Cassey!!!) and I just completed the Beginner’s Calendar which I’m very proud of. Of course since it’s only been 1 month it’s not like I’ve lost extremely much but I already feel that my muscles are stronger than before. I am really looking forward to do next month’s calendar (Cassey’s workout calendars basically tell you which videos to do every day in order to achieve the best results).


Another thing I did was ordering Almased which is some sort of dietary supplement, since a lot of people (my best friend included) say it really works. I don’t know about that but I’ll definitely give it a try and keep you updated!


School’s tomorrow. Ugh. I need to take a shower. x__x

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