+ I lost 4kg, - I hate everyone pt 2
written on Wednesday, 6 May 2015 @ 17:23 ♡
So first of all the good news; I lost 4kg!! It took me 4 weeks which is actually a long time concidering the fact that I once lost 7kg in 3 weeks but then again this time I'm doing it the healthy way and I'm not doing any work-outs at all. I simply try to eat less than 1200kcal per day and walk or ride my bike everywhere.
Now let's talk about the not so pretty things.
To be honest, I always expected to find friends I'm going to have for the rest of my life in university but right now it doesn't seem like it. Everyone I hang out with is super friendly and nice but I just can't seem to really connect w anyone which I didn't mind at first, but now it turnes out that my best friend M is going to leave to study in a different city in September, meaning I'll be all by myself..
Also there is this guy. He's taken but I'm kind of getting interested. I don't know if I'm getting interested in a romantic way or just a friend kinda way but I just find myself wanting to talk to him a lot all the time and it's really fucking frustrating.
And then there's this other guy from my class who I kind of want to hook up with but then again he seems to be VERY experienced to say the least, and I don't know if I could handle the pressure since I'm over here like
Now let's talk about the not so pretty things.
To be honest, I always expected to find friends I'm going to have for the rest of my life in university but right now it doesn't seem like it. Everyone I hang out with is super friendly and nice but I just can't seem to really connect w anyone which I didn't mind at first, but now it turnes out that my best friend M is going to leave to study in a different city in September, meaning I'll be all by myself..
And then there's this other guy from my class who I kind of want to hook up with but then again he seems to be VERY experienced to say the least, and I don't know if I could handle the pressure since I'm over here like
what is a boy....?
Right..
So there is that..
Another thing bothering me is the fact that (I just spilled coke all over my table I think that's a sign from god that he isn't very pleased with me using that picture of Holy Maria to describe my sex life) the guy who broke my heart is happy. I just saw him and his girlfriend going to Zara and god, just looking at them made me want to throw up.
I got back my SHERLOCK DVDs and everything after messaging him frist (!!) and when we met up, he fucking showed up 17 minutes too late. 17 fucking minutes.
I texted him "where r u" and he was all "ohh u r already here?? haha ok im on my way" WHAT THE FUCK I CLEARLY FUCKING SAID LET'S MEET AT 6PM WHAT MADE U THINK THAT BY 6PM I MEAN 6:17???????????? Goddamnit.
And then he forgot to bring my bag.
You know, I originally planned to just get my stuff and leave quietly without starting to talk about my life and everything but when he fucked up again so I decided to fucking gloat about everything that happened lately. Fuck you. I told him about my appartement, my hamster, uni, the party I was visiting after etc etc. and then I was like "ok I g2g I'm meeting someone bye" and left.
Oh, and I forgot to mention that he didn't apologise for being late :)
Just writing about this makes me so angry and mad god I want to rip his head off!!! I don't understand what I liked about him. Why did I think this boy was so special?? I don't understand. What the fuck??
So yeah, I've been busy.
Labels: angry, friends, life, life lesson, love, love life, random, regular, sad, university, weight loss journey