Actually,
written on Thursday, 29 January 2015 @ 20:43 ♡
Restarting this blog and closing blog.yehet.me was a really good idea. I don't feel as obligated to post as much anymore and that actually makes me want to write more. I miss having affiliates and people to talk to, though. I'll probably message some of those people soon so that they know I still exist.
Today I had my first exam at uni. I hope I passed /sigh
Yesterday I coloured my hair and it's darker than expected. I hated it at first but now I'm actually starting to like it. I feel like my hair reflects my emotional crisis perfectly and I really like the way I look when I combine it with dark red lipstick. I'm planning on buying some new ones by MAC as soon as I get my salery.
I snapchatted my crush today because I looked good and he replied. Halleluja! But still no sign of him asking me to hang out again. I need to get a life and move on, seriously.
Today I had my first exam at uni. I hope I passed /sigh
Yesterday I coloured my hair and it's darker than expected. I hated it at first but now I'm actually starting to like it. I feel like my hair reflects my emotional crisis perfectly and I really like the way I look when I combine it with dark red lipstick. I'm planning on buying some new ones by MAC as soon as I get my salery.
I snapchatted my crush today because I looked good and he replied. Halleluja! But still no sign of him asking me to hang out again. I need to get a life and move on, seriously.
Labels: just me thinking out loud, life, love, university
Sleepless nights
written on Sunday, 21 December 2014 @ 19:10 ♡
I hate sundays.
I've been feeling sad and stressed all day and I don't really know what to do with myself. I got a new job at the german equivalent of Walmart and yesterday was my first day at work. I worked for 7 hours and my co-workers aren't nice at all. But well, I work as a cashier so it's not like I have time to talk to anyone anyways.. I messed up a few times but over all I did pretty okay I guess, although I'm scared that I might've given out too much or too little money.. I'll find out how well or bad I did tomorrow when I have to work again.
Another issue bothering me is this one guy, M. I talked to him once and he laughed at my jokes so I spent all weekend thinking about how much I want to become friends with him, so the next time I had uni, I went up to him and started to talk about random stuff. I ended up selling him my old phone lmao and a few days ago I asked him if he wants to come studying with me. We are probably going to meet up tomorrow and honestly, I don't really feel like it anymore. Maybe that's just because of my depressed mood today or maybe I'm just weird, but I'd rather just stay at home and suffer in silence while waiting for it to be time to work. Okay no, I definitely should NOT do that..
I'm also scared that he might think I'm developing feelings for him. /sigh
Labels: friends, just me thinking out loud, sad, work