Sleepless nights

I've been feeling sad and stressed all day and I don't really know what to do with myself. I got a new job at the german equivalent of Walmart and yesterday was my first day at work. I worked for 7 hours and my co-workers aren't nice at all. But well, I work as a cashier so it's not like I have time to talk to anyone anyways.. I messed up a few times but over all I did pretty okay I guess, although I'm scared that I might've given out too much or too little money.. I'll find out how well or bad I did tomorrow when I have to work again. 

Another issue bothering me is this one guy, M. I talked to him once and he laughed at my jokes so I spent all weekend thinking about how much I want to become friends with him, so the next time I had uni, I went up to him and started to talk about random stuff. I ended up selling him my old phone lmao and a few days ago I asked him if he wants to come studying with me. We are probably going to meet up tomorrow and honestly, I don't really feel like it anymore. Maybe that's just because of my depressed mood today or maybe I'm just weird, but I'd rather just stay at home and suffer in silence while waiting for it to be time to work. Okay no, I definitely should NOT do that.. 

I'm also scared that he might think I'm developing feelings for him. /sigh 

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