When people criticize the way I choose to live
written on Saturday, 5 December 2015 @ 09:13 ♡
My boyfriend and their family keep telling me to get my drivers licence because it keeps getting more and more expensive and I need to have it blah blah blah
I know that they are right with their arguments and that it's very unusual for a girl my age not to have her drivers licence yet but I just have other priorities. Frankly speaking, I don't earn that much money with my job so I'd rather spend it on clothes and other materialistic things and it's just that I really do not need my dl right now. I live very central and I can basically ride my bike or even walk everywhere since neither my university/college nor the city are far away. I literally live next to a tram station so why should I choose to save money for over a year to get the amount I need to do something so pointless? And I don't even want to drive. The idea of driving a car is scary to me. And I really don't understand why it's such a big deal to them. Why do they care?
I mean I get the whole "stop drinking so much Coca Cola Zero, it's not healthy"-thing. But still, why do you want to tell me how to live my life? I can see that their intentions are good and everything but it is really annoying. I'm an adult I can make decisions myself and it's not like they are the ones that should be talking since they drink champagne every friday.
Another thing they usually criticize about me as well is what I'm studying. I'm a "Law of Information" student at a college. Doesn't sound that bad, right? Yeah, no, according to them the faculty I chose to study at is bad since it's not a real university, I guess? But now, tell me, please: Who. The. Fuck. Cares?????????? I fucking chose to study there, I could've gone to this shit ass university, too, if I wanted but guess what; I didn't fucking apply to it because none of the courses looked appealing to me and honestly, I don't think I'm ambitious enough to study something like informatics or engeneering. And my boyfriend his family and also some of his friends keep making fun of me for having a "lower" education, I guess? Well sorry that I WANTED it that way, that I WANTED to study somewhere else.
I think their comments wouldn't even bother me that much if I really enjoyed what I was studying but right now I'm sort of in an existencial cricis since I realised that I do not want to do anything in the field of law which makes the thing I'm studying kind of pointless but they don't know that!! And it's also that in general they make fun of people with lower education I mean why do you care? Why do you feel like you are so much better because of that? Education does not define you as a person you can be educated as fuck and still rape someone for fucks sake...... that's probably the thing pissing me off the most. And the fact that they make fun of lower educated people IN FRONT OF THEM. Not just me but I also saw them doing that in front of others who looked just as annoyed as me.
My boyfriend usually also keeps nagging about how I spend my money. Yes, my fucking money. The money I have earned. The money I work for. At the end of every month when we get our pay I go to amazon and some clothing selling homepages and buy things using the money which, like I already said, I have earned. He and his family just can't understand how I can spend everything.
I've never been good at saving money for anything and there's really nothing I want to save money for right now so why would I do that? For me, buying things is a reward for my hard work. If I don't buy anything I feel like I'm working for nothing, if you know what I mean? And ugh it' just so fucking annoying just let me live my goddamn life fucking hell I really need to talk to him about this issue because I keep getting mad just thinking about it....!!
I know that they are right with their arguments and that it's very unusual for a girl my age not to have her drivers licence yet but I just have other priorities. Frankly speaking, I don't earn that much money with my job so I'd rather spend it on clothes and other materialistic things and it's just that I really do not need my dl right now. I live very central and I can basically ride my bike or even walk everywhere since neither my university/college nor the city are far away. I literally live next to a tram station so why should I choose to save money for over a year to get the amount I need to do something so pointless? And I don't even want to drive. The idea of driving a car is scary to me. And I really don't understand why it's such a big deal to them. Why do they care?
I mean I get the whole "stop drinking so much Coca Cola Zero, it's not healthy"-thing. But still, why do you want to tell me how to live my life? I can see that their intentions are good and everything but it is really annoying. I'm an adult I can make decisions myself and it's not like they are the ones that should be talking since they drink champagne every friday.
Another thing they usually criticize about me as well is what I'm studying. I'm a "Law of Information" student at a college. Doesn't sound that bad, right? Yeah, no, according to them the faculty I chose to study at is bad since it's not a real university, I guess? But now, tell me, please: Who. The. Fuck. Cares?????????? I fucking chose to study there, I could've gone to this shit ass university, too, if I wanted but guess what; I didn't fucking apply to it because none of the courses looked appealing to me and honestly, I don't think I'm ambitious enough to study something like informatics or engeneering. And my boyfriend his family and also some of his friends keep making fun of me for having a "lower" education, I guess? Well sorry that I WANTED it that way, that I WANTED to study somewhere else.
I think their comments wouldn't even bother me that much if I really enjoyed what I was studying but right now I'm sort of in an existencial cricis since I realised that I do not want to do anything in the field of law which makes the thing I'm studying kind of pointless but they don't know that!! And it's also that in general they make fun of people with lower education I mean why do you care? Why do you feel like you are so much better because of that? Education does not define you as a person you can be educated as fuck and still rape someone for fucks sake...... that's probably the thing pissing me off the most. And the fact that they make fun of lower educated people IN FRONT OF THEM. Not just me but I also saw them doing that in front of others who looked just as annoyed as me.
My boyfriend usually also keeps nagging about how I spend my money. Yes, my fucking money. The money I have earned. The money I work for. At the end of every month when we get our pay I go to amazon and some clothing selling homepages and buy things using the money which, like I already said, I have earned. He and his family just can't understand how I can spend everything.
I've never been good at saving money for anything and there's really nothing I want to save money for right now so why would I do that? For me, buying things is a reward for my hard work. If I don't buy anything I feel like I'm working for nothing, if you know what I mean? And ugh it' just so fucking annoying just let me live my goddamn life fucking hell I really need to talk to him about this issue because I keep getting mad just thinking about it....!!
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