I fucked up, Episode 666 - A married man

I almost slept with a guy who’s about to get engaged.

Yeah.

I fucked up.

Big time.

It’s a long story but basically it all started when we first worked together. His name is A and at first we didn’t get along that well. Okay, we did get along well but I just didn’t like him that much lmao.

The second time we worked together, we started to talk more and even ended up riding bikes  home together and he lent me his jacket and messaged me right away after we seperated to see if I got home safely. I thought it was really cute.

At home I looked him up on Facebook and saw that he had a girlfriend. I thought ok whatever we can be friends, right?

No.

Our conversations soon started to get a little… perverted. We basically sexted each other and whenever we saw each other we would touch a little. Nothing inappropriate but you know, little things like touching the other person’s arm and stuff.

Then I found out he was going to get engaged.

Fucking engaged.

And no, it was not him who told me but another co-worker of mine congratulated him in front of me. I was kind of shocked to be honest. I didn’t expect him to get married. I mean having a girlfriend is one thing but fucking marriage????? Honestly????

Anyway. I decided not to care. I thought hey this is none of my business if he wants to cheat on her that’s not my problem, I’m going to have my fun.

Haha.

I’m such a fucking shit ass idiot. What the fuck was I thinking.

However, I continued to talk to him a lot and our conversations got worse and worse each day. I imagined what it would be like to kiss him and to sleep with him. I liked the idea and somehow I started to fall for him a little.

Our inappropriate texts and irl conversations wouldn’t stop and today he asked me to visit him at work. I decided to go, because, yes, like I said, I’m a fucking idiot.

At the library we work at A and I got along well, like always and he kept making comments about my ass and how pretty he thinks I am.

Of course I didn’t mind that. Who doesn’t want a 22 year old guy who tells you your ass looks good on a daily basis?

Right.

When the other co-workers left and A and I took the bus somehow he ended up putting his hand on my thigh. He started to feel me up a little (I had my bag on my knees so no one saw and we were sitting in the very back of the bus) and we dirty talked a little. He had a boner.

Suddenly I paniked.

I asked myself what the fuck was I doing???

When we got off I think he wanted to kiss me but I just hugged him and ran to get my tram.

I was shaking and I called my best friend and talked to her. And then I talked to some other friends too and asked them for advice. I knew that I definitely do not want to sleep with him. If I wanted to, I wouldn’t have been so scared.

He texted me afterwards and said all those things about how much he wants me and I decided to mention his fiancé. I asked him how he could do this to her and said that I think we shouldn’t be doing what we are doing because it’s not fair to her.
He agreed. I thought things were alright now, but lol no nvm he started to flirt again. And again. And again. I tried to be as nice as possible since I really do like him but just not like that, I think? Also I don’t want things to get weird between us at work.

LMAO … Right….

Well,.. as you can see… I fucked up. Once again.