I feel like crying
written on Tuesday, 27 January 2015 @ 20:55 ♡
Today my mum needs more money so she got herself a second job. It's at the same grocery store I work at. Great, huh? Now everytime she works I will be there too :)))) Totally awesome, right?!? And the best part is the bakery she works at is exactly in front of the checkout I usually sit at. Isn't life perfect these days?
My crush doesn't give a shit about me, I guess I interpreted everything the wrong way. He stopped replying to my messages and didn't snap me back. He didn't ask me to meet again and just in general I get the feeling that this is not working out. I guess I was just bothering him.
I hate that I am looking at my phone every 5 seconds because he MIGHT've messaged me. I should just turn it off and leave it at home..
I don't get it. What the fuck have I done to deserve this shit? I know, I know, there are people who have it far worse, I KNOW. But that doesn't make my problems any less valid. I honestly just want to cry everything sucks so much..
Right now I'm trying really hard not to break down in tears because of all the shitty things happening to me lately. University is also stressing me out and my best friend is away and there isn't really anyone else I want to talk to besides her.
I just want to quit everything and move somewhere far away and start over. But then again I am not brave enough and I would miss too many people.
Labels: love, love life, rant, sad, university