I'm kind of dating someone..?

But let's get back to business.

I haven't been writing much lately since I was rather busy with my exams, work and just life in general.. but a lot has happened.

Some of you might know that I work at a library and that a few co workers kind of hit on me. Lately I've been getting along very well with this guy C. C has a brother J, who also works at the library. C and I have been texting a lot and I thought he was rly nice but in a friend-kinda-way, whereas I thought his brother was annoying even though J and I sometimes talked over WhatsApp bc I thought he was also interested in the same memes as me lmao (turns out he lied..).

One day C asked me out (? I think.. I mean he asked if I wanted to see a movie w him and I said yes but we are talking about watching a movie as friends right and he was like ok... thats literally all he said and we ended up never watching the movie..). A few hours before C asked me out, his brother asked me out too, which was a weird coincidence tbh..

I said yes to J bc he kind of sparked my interest bc he was really mean at first but suddenly turned out to be really nice.

I suggested we go to a bar to drink. That day (05.08. - for future reference) I was actually pretty nervous but it went very well. We went to another bar right after and then to the park and got some more alcohol. After that we went to my place and to McDonald's and then to his place to watch a movie. I didn't think I would hang out with him for such a long time, it was a nice surprise.

The next time we met at my place bc he offered to help me to fix my bike. We then went to get some food and cooked sth and ended up playing a card game, drinking a little and then we decided to watch Big Bang Theory. We were lying in my bed and cuddeling, it was nice. I haven't held someone in a very long time... 

At one point I was so sleepy I asked him if he's going to sleep over or if he wants to leave later and he said he'll stay. He had his arms around me and tbh it was really uncomfortable but I liked it so much that I still didn't move lmao I'm such an idiot. 

I wasn't able to sleep much but well, whatever..

In the morning he was kind of annoying me though. I thought he was being funny and cute but I'm definitely not a morning person, especially when I only slept for like 3 hours max... so I suggested we watch Parks and Rec (I LOVE THIS SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)  

At one point he was annoying me so much bc he thought it was hilarious to blow air into my face and I kind of lost it? Like I thought this was his 'special' way of trying to kiss me - since he still hasn't done that ???? - so I turned around, placed my arms on his shoulders and asked him what hes trying to do. He was so shocked it was hilarious lmao he definitely didn't expect that and said nothing oh god my heart is beating so fast rn. I got pissed again that he didn't take this chance, though, and turned around again. Later I told him that it's time for him to leave since I got stuff to do haha

Yesterday we met again and we went to the cinema. I had a really good time. Before I was kind of doubting my feelings for him bc after this one guy who crushed my heart into a thousand pieces :) I haven't liked anyone for real anymore. But now I can't stop thinking about kissing him and it's driving me nuts bc I know that he likes me and I just don't get why he hasn't tried to kiss me yet ITS SO FUCKING FRUSTRATING and oh yes im on my period so there is that...

He's sleeping over on saturday. I'm definitely going to make a move goddamnit!!!!

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