Perks of being antisocial
written on Saturday, 31 August 2013 @ 02:08 ♡
So I was at this "event"/"party" or whatever you want to call it and once again I realized how socially awkward I am.
I went with two friends and when some of our class mates showed up and basically joined us, I noticed that I have absolutely NOTHING to talk to them about. And I also don't really want to talk to them either, which doesn't necessarily help very much. My best friend and I just kind of stood there awkwardly, while our other friend socialized.
And if that wasn't enough I also embarassed myself in front of K who I hit very hard when he walked passed me because he probably didn't recognize me since it was really dark. He was rather surprised and idk if I pissed him off oh lord..
This whole evening was so horrible. Oh god I just felt so unconfortable and wanted to leave.
Which I did, as you can see.
You know, I think that's just not who I am. I'm not a social person who can drink alcohol and do whatever the fuck she wants without second thoughts. I am not someone who can pretend to be friends with people they don't like. I am not someone who's outgoing and I am definitely not someone who can flirt. I am going to die alone.
Well, at least I realized that! So now I don't need to feel pressured to go out and do stuff because I clearly dislike being around people..
And btw, K asked me for my number after giving me several hints that he's now using whatsapp bc he got a new phone and blahblah which I perfectly ignored but then he finally built up the courage hahahah
I went with two friends and when some of our class mates showed up and basically joined us, I noticed that I have absolutely NOTHING to talk to them about. And I also don't really want to talk to them either, which doesn't necessarily help very much. My best friend and I just kind of stood there awkwardly, while our other friend socialized.
And if that wasn't enough I also embarassed myself in front of K who I hit very hard when he walked passed me because he probably didn't recognize me since it was really dark. He was rather surprised and idk if I pissed him off oh lord..
This whole evening was so horrible. Oh god I just felt so unconfortable and wanted to leave.
Which I did, as you can see.
You know, I think that's just not who I am. I'm not a social person who can drink alcohol and do whatever the fuck she wants without second thoughts. I am not someone who can pretend to be friends with people they don't like. I am not someone who's outgoing and I am definitely not someone who can flirt. I am going to die alone.
Well, at least I realized that! So now I don't need to feel pressured to go out and do stuff because I clearly dislike being around people..
And btw, K asked me for my number after giving me several hints that he's now using whatsapp bc he got a new phone and blahblah which I perfectly ignored but then he finally built up the courage hahahah