Monday,
written on Saturday, 17 August 2013 @ 23:22 ♡
School starts on monday.
I' am not ready for this.
During my six weeks of vacation I literally did NOTHING for school which is really fucking bad considering the fact that my report card wasn't that satisfyng...
I feel exhausted just thinking about monday. I'll be seeing all those people again which I successfully avoided the past weeks and since it's my last year, shit's gettin real now. UGGGGHHH I don't want to see all those girls who pretend to be friends with each other again.I just want to go to uni already where no one gives a flying fuck about what you look like.
I am feeling really down right now. I have no idea where this feeling is comming from but it frickin sucks. Maybe it's because suMMER JUST DOESN'T FUCKING END I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF SWEATING MY ASS OFF EVERWHERE I GO or because I'm afraid of seeing my crush again..
Worth mentioning is maybe also that today, once again, I realized I am a horrible person. I diched my friend and told her I didn't have time to hang out because I need to clean up, which wasn't completely a lie since I REALLY had to do that but well.. the only things I did today were buying food and dying my hair (there is hair dye all over the wall right now thank god my mum isn't home this week i need to paint it over or sth idk hlep). I think she's pissed which is understandable but I mean, it's nothing personal. I just need some alone time before school starts since last week I was in spain with my parents who I saw 24/7... literally!!
I am so exhausted........................ can someone just stop time for a few days???? ha ha .. ha..